And now we wait..

I had an incredible job interview a few days ago. The conversation felt natural, the office culture was fun and relaxed, everyone seemed happy to work there, and the position itself is exactly what I’m looking for. I sent them the work samples they requested after the interview, even mailed them a personalized thank you note.. and now the worst part of it all begins- the waiting period. For someone with anxiety and a tendency to overthink, this is going to be hell. Did I do a good enough job for them to actually hire me? What if there is another applicant who did better than me? What if I was too nervous and they don’t think I will fit in there? What if I just never hear anything back from them? There are so many questions swirling around in my mind and I can’t make them stop. I can momentarily distract myself, but I keep coming back to these nagging fears- what if they reject me? I will be absolutely crushed. I have never felt like I am worthy of a full time job at an awesome company until now. If I am turned down for this positon, it will be a huge blow to my confidence and also to my self-esteem.

I am just trying to keep myself busy and convince myself that everything is going to be ok. I am expecting to hear back sometime next week like they said, but every minute feels like an hour, and every day feels like a year. I cannot wait to get the news, but I am also terrified of it.

Only time will tell…

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